The first full day of 37 has been even better than expected. In fact, in the last 24 hours, I’ve had an opportunity to practice at least three of the items on My List of 37!
This evening I wasn’t ready to go home after work. It was a beautiful day and sitting inside wasn’t an option. I went to a little nature preserve and spent about 45 minutes walking the trails. Chalk one up to #12 – “Go outside more often”.
*I* am the One I've been waiting for
But there’s more to it than that. The item on yesterday’s list that drew the most comments was #1 – “Be my own soulmate”.
Just before New Years, I created intentions for 2011. As I contemplated my intention for love and relationships, I heard something very clearly in my mind. It seemed absolutely crazy: “I will be creating a life with my soulmate by June 5, 2011.” It seemed absurdly fast. However, after some conversation with myself, I decided to leave the intention as I heard it.
About two months ago, with absolutely no romantic prospects on the horizon, I talked with Rev. Nancy about it. Her response blew my mind: “What if you are living with your soulmate by June 5th, and that soulmate is you?”
Holy crap! I had to swallow hard and really get still to even be able to hear that, let alone believe it. Actually, I didn’t believe in it. I willfully ignored it and forgot about it.
Until a couple of weeks ago, when I noticed how drastically things have changed in the last six months. In January, I was working from home and slowly shriveling from lack of human contact. Now I’m out in the world, having adventures I never imagined I’d have, working with people who value my presence and my contribution, and having SO MUCH FUN!
When my birthday rolled around this weekend and I still hadn’t met “the One”, I had to go back and seriously reconsider Rev. Nancy’s words. And you know what? She’s right. In the last six months, I’ve gotten ME back. I AM the “One” I’ve been looking for.
I really enjoy spending time outside, hiking, and doing fun things. But one of the lies I’ve told myself for years is that I need someone else to motivate me to go outside. “If only I had a partner who would encourage me to get out and do more things!” I whined to myself.
Tonight I began the process of being my own soulmate – I took myself out for a walk. I even put some dates on my calendar to take myself out on hikes in the next couple of months. It’s time to stop waiting for someone else to make my life happen. I am the One I have been waiting for.
How all of that plays into this last piece I can only guess, but the energies have definitely shifted. Tonight, I also had the opportunity to practice #28. Life sure is interesting! 🙂
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Maria Pawlowski
June 7, 2011 at 10:04 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
Great reading Leah. Thank you for being a current part of my ‘messaging system’. Your sharing speaks to me. I’m in a challenging place and a little scared, but hoping to find the Light and the Love here. Are you going to tell us more about your ‘#28 experience’? HA HA Have a splendid day. BTW, I met you at Red Tent once or twice. Do you remember me?
Leah Carey
June 7, 2011 at 9:59 PM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
I’m so glad that we can be here together, Maria. To paraphrase (and butcher) a cliche, “If you’re not a little bit scared, you’re not paying attention.” 🙂 If I can support you through the challenging times, please let me know.
As for my #28 experience – a very sweet young man surprised me with an offer to go out last night, and true to my manifesto, I said yes. 🙂
I’m better with faces and stories than I am with names, so please forgive that I can’t pull yours up immediately. I’d like to make it back to a Red Tent, though, so perhaps I’ll see you again!
Jennifer Strong
June 8, 2011 at 8:19 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
This post really speaks to me Leah. Sometimes it’s as if we share the very same thoughts and feelings. I can honestly say I am not one to be able to relate to many people or song lyrics like most. But you… I can relate to, and it’s comforting to know. As always, thank you for sharing. I love you!
Leah Carey
June 8, 2011 at 9:22 PM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
Thank you so much, Jen. I love you too and I’m so very grateful that we’ve reconnected. 🙂
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