I’ve been having a serious bout of Crazy the last few days. You wanna know how Crazy?
This is what Crazy looks like in my world
Today I stopped at McDonald’s and got some french fries.
That may not seem like a very big deal, but I don’t know the last time I did that!!
Then on the way home today I stopped at the grocery store and got some thinly-sliced deli meats. Let me be clear here – I DON’T EAT DELI MEATS.
This is a case of the full-on Crazies.
Iyanla Vanzant often says that if you see Crazy walking down the street, you can choose to cross the street. Well for a couple of days I’ve been choosing to walk up to Crazy, introduce myself, take it by the hand, and go for a long walk along the river. There might even have been some making out at the end of the evening. CRAZY.
Here’s the interesting thing, though – this time around I KNOW that it’s Crazy. I’m not wandering around in a haze of bad behavior and beating myself up for being a lazy, undisciplined, bad person. I can see and name the Crazy.
I can walk up to the counter at McDonalds, order french fries, and say to myself while I’m doing it, “This is Crazy behavior. I’m not going to stop myself, but I’m aware that this is Crazy.”
The other good thing is that I’m surrounded by a tremendous amount of support as I look Crazy in the face. It’s times like this that I really appreciate how much love there is around me.
I may be Crazy for a few more days, but I’m not going to run away. And I’m not going to go to McDonald’s again.
But there ARE some deli meats calling my name.
2 comments
Lisa LaPlante
July 18, 2011 at 10:21 PM (UTC -5) Link to this comment
LOVE you!!! I am reading this just moments after I popped one rollo… followed by a second rollos into my mouth. Had a short conversation with myself before opening the fridge, and unwrapping each of them. But pulled up my “big girl pants” and decided I indeed wanted each of the two mini-bites-of-blissful-caramel-filled-chocolate-“forbiddens” . . . Feeling pretty okay about it myself. =)
Leah Carey
July 19, 2011 at 8:03 AM (UTC -5) Link to this comment
Oh Lisa, this is cracking me up!! Thank you for sharing. 🙂 Perhaps the miracle is that we’re seeing the boundaries of our Crazy and interacting with it with our big girl panties on. 😉 LOVE YOU!