Sep 16

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Finding peace in the chaos

Having declared my willingness to look at financial issues in my life, once again tonight I seem to be face to face with it.

Tonight I sat down to reconcile my checkbook and then pay my bills (after the credit card scare yesterday, I want those puppies taken care of!)

I’d like to think of myself as someone who is so organized that reconciling the various accounts would be a snap.  Unfortunately that view of myself is still kind of far-fetched.

Last month something really unusual happened – the bank told me I had about $400 more than I could find in my checkbook.  Everything still balanced properly, so there had to be entries that were incorrect.  I spent several hours trying to figure it out last month and finally gave up.  I figured it would show itself this month.

As I sat down tonight to reconcile, I knew that I’d have to search harder and find the problem.  Oddly, the discrepancy seemed to have grown – from $400 to almost $800 (at least the discrepancy was in my favor, so I didn’t have to freak out about overdrawing!)

I’ve been sitting in front of my computer for about 2.5 hours now searching through every transaction.  I’ve got the discrepancy down to about $650.  At this point I’m simply stumped.  I really don’t know how to move forward.

I need to pay several bills but I’m nervous because I’m not sure how much money I have to work with.  I’ll probably set up payments for the minimums and then sit down and try to figure it out again this weekend.

Here’s the miracle – I’m facing it.  I’m not letting it get the better of me.  In the past, I would have cried and thrown a tantrum and asked someone else to try to figure it out for me (yes, when it comes to finances apparently I’m still about 12 years old.)

Tonight I’m looking at it and saying – I’ll figure it out.  And it’s okay if it’s not tonight.


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Leah Carey

Leah Carey is the Chief Miracle Officer of The Miracle Journal, where she writes about the large and small miracles that happen in her life every day. She is a life coach, speaker, journalist, freelance writer, and lover of life. In all of those pursuits, she works with people to identify what’s already right in your life so you can build an even more joyful and fulfilling daily experience from that foundation. You can find her on Facebook, , Twitter, and YouTube.

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  1. TR

    Wishing you all the best on facing it. Been there a few times myself and struggled with wanting it fixed and making sense right now. It’s great to hear you can reach a place of peace about it.

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