Tonight’s guest post comes from Leta Hamilton. I cannot tell a lie – it brought a tear (or six) to my eyes when I read it:
Leta Hamilton
As I write this, I am holding our three-month-old fourth son. After our third, my husband had a vasectomy. Two years later, I was into personal fitness again – kickboxing, jogging, eating well – but I wasn’t losing any weight. Very busy with 3 children already, I did not put all of the “signs” together until I started feeling movement. Why would I? My husband had received the all-clear from the doctor ages ago and it had been over two years since the procedure, so….
This baby is a miracle because he taught and continues to teach this family how to love deeper. When I first discovered I was pregnant again, I had to overcome the emotional shock that this was happening. Then, as a family, we had to come to terms with what an unexpected baby would mean for our lives. Furthermore, I had to ground myself in the reality of what a new baby would entail for me personally.
All of the struggle to come to terms with the “why” – especially when I have close friends and family who have spent years struggling with infertility – was a spiritual journey in itself. I had to transcend feelings of guilt, shame, injustice and anger in order to arrive at an emotional place within myself where I could love this baby with the love that ALL babies deserve. I also had to come to terms with having a fourth son when initially the one bright light of it all was the hope that this would finally be our girl.
He came into this world on October 28th, 2011 at home and delivered completely naturally. He is a miracle. One that continues to bring us deep and awesome joy. He has given me the irreplaceable gift of learning to love and accept myself more than I ever thought possible.
Leta’s website has the totally awesome tag line “Finding Zen amid poopy diapers and laundry piles.” 🙂 She says: “It is my mission, and my passion, to focus our attention on the greater context of parenting and to open the conversation about what we can learn from the innate wisdom and natural spirituality of our ‘Zen Masters in Diapers.'”
She has published a book titled “The Way of the Toddler: The Craziness of Modern Motherhood and the Spiritual Lessons I Learned from My Zen Masters in Diapers” and has a weekly radio show, The Way of the Toddler Hour.
Do you have a miraculous story you’d like to share? Please click on “Share Your Miracle” and let me know about it!
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Nancy
February 16, 2012 at 6:26 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
Thank you for sharing your story with us here…This has a lot of lessons learned too…
sheila callaham
February 16, 2012 at 7:23 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
Leta/Leah — thanks for sharing such a warm story. It brought back memories of being in the doctor’s office when I was pregnant with my now 10-year old Ryan.
When the doctor told us with a smile that we were going to have a son, I exclaimed, “But doctor, we already have four sons at home!”
To which he replied, “Then you’ll know what to do with this one!”
Our surprise has given us 10 years of joy, delight, and a deepness for life we never expected to have. You have so much to look forward too!
Cheers,
Sheila
Leah Carey
February 26, 2012 at 8:36 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
Oh my gosh – what a perfect response the doctor had, Sheila! I love that story. 🙂
Fey1
February 17, 2012 at 7:00 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
I think, Other people cannot believe what miracles come into my life… When i get pregnant with my first baby, I took ultra sound to found out what is the gender of baby and the result comes out that it was a “Girl”.. We are quite frustrated because we want a baby “Boy”… We are wishing every now and then to have a kind of miracle and made a “Son” an d after 3 months.. Our OB-gynecology was shocked when the result comes out the a get pregnant with a baby boy… God is powerful, And I never doubt it..
Leah Carey
February 26, 2012 at 8:35 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
Great story, Fey. Thanks for sharing. 🙂
Joannah
February 17, 2012 at 8:57 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
I love the story…I really like how you have shared it here…You are an inspiration to all of us…Thank you!
Queenie20
February 21, 2012 at 7:15 AM (UTC -4) Link to this comment
what a nice and inspiring story. your so lucky to have a miracle baby, a gift from heaven indeed.